"We have rested long enough...All these years, all I've had is darkness, but I have never seen a brighter light than when my eyes just opened. And I know that light burns in all of you....I'd rather die today than live another day of this death." (Snow White and the Huntsman)
Have you ever been watching a movie, just mentally relaxing, enjoying the story, feeling like you're there in the story? And then all of the sudden, a profound truth smacks you in the face... A truth that puts into words what you've been trying to get out of your soul all along. Better yet, it's a fairy tale - a modern day fable - perhaps it's meant to get people's attention. Or maybe it was just speaking to me...
Whatever the case, this scene is where I am right now in my life. For may moons now I have been trying to understand, to find direction, to find Purpose, seeking His face, searching His word. Nothing made sense. Sometimes it still doesn't. But just as Snow White's eyes suddenly opened, it seemed like my spiritual eyes were opened to something "new," though it was likely there all along.
While I don't consider most of my journey to be restful, I have "rested" long enough. I have wandered by the wayside, wondering what was next, waiting for instruction. Now I have received my summons. Whether I will be called to this round, I don't know. But I have chosen to follow, to be obedient, to be transparent. I am more uncertain of my future than I have been in a long time. But I finally feel life being breathed back in to my dry bones. Today's rains reminded of the rain I have waited for so long while in this desert.
Not sure where we are going, but when He says go, I will go. And when He says stay, I will stay. And when He says hold on, I'm in for the duration! Looking forward to I don't know what...and am finally okay with that...
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